Staying Positive and making plans

As many of you probably know by now my knees are not the best….Osgood Schlatter’s Disease as a teenager, followed by nearly thirty years of rugby and then a couple of thousand miles a year on foot take their toll. After a couple of years when the deterioration had become more marked and after spending nearly two years waiting I finally had another surgery a month ago. I had been expecting a knee replacement but the medical team did their very best to flatter me telling me “You’re too young for that sort of thing” and advised a Distal Femoral Osteotomy where a wedge of bone is cut out of the femur and then a metal plate screwed into the bone to realign the leg and remove excess pressure from the most severely arthritic part of my knee. It’s quite a major operation involving an oscillating saw and in my case the wedge was cut a bit deep and they ended up having to insert plates into both sides of the femur….leaving me with some pretty meaty scars and at least ten weeks on crutches! Thalia has done a fantastic job of looking after me but inevitably for someone generally as active as I am staying positive has been a bit of a battle particularly seeing other people off continuing on their adventures. Logic tells me this period of enforced convalescence is a small price to pay for improved knee function and the ability to continue doing the job I love but there have definitely been some periods of low mood even as the wounds continue to heal and I get back function slowly but surely. Simple things like making and carrying a cup of coffee or a sandwich become impossible when you’re non-weight bearing and being sat on the couch twelve hours a day I am drinking a lot of coffee….so, how to stay positive?
Well, the thing that has worked best for me so far is looking forward. Whilst there have been some enjoyable reminiscences about adventures past, planning for 2025 and setting some positive personal goals has been the best way to help keep myself sane. I have discovered a huge amount of really inspiring content on “Youtube”. Current favourites include the likeably goofy Abbie Barnes who specialises in multi day hikes and the somewhat more self explanatory “Scottish Munro Journey”. Both of these channels have had me itching to get North of the border as soon as mobility allows. They have also got me thinking about the possibility of trying to make a wee film of my own sometime if I can overcome a lifelong aversion to technology! In a couple of weeks time Thalia and I had been planning to visit Costa Rica, a country that has long been on my radar, obviously this isn’t now happening, but with guidebook and map laid out on the coffee table I am already deep into the throws of planning an itinerary for an adventure there in 2025. I have been working (finally) on completing a manuscript about the Land of my Fathers thousand plus mile walk I took around the borders of Wales in 2021. Working on this has reminded me just how much I enjoyed the physical and logistical challenge of a very long walk so I have been researching around this subject. After our pre-op trip to Stockholm Scandanavia has been very much at the fore and I am intriuged by the Kungsleden in Sweden and the St Olav Way in Norway. There are plenty of routes closer to home and geographically at least the GM Ringway trail (200 miles long) can be accessed literally from my doorstep. The recent development of this trail has also got me thinking about creating a long distance walk of my own, using the existing network of footpaths to link together places of meaning for me.
Put all these together, add in the purchase of some dumbells to keep my upper body strong, menu planning to ensure the my diet is optimising my recovery (thank you again Thalia) and ensuring that I stay in touch with a network of supportive friends has meant that what had the potential to be a very dark time has, so far, not been too bad. Of course I am only half way through the more serious part of my recovery and after the ten weeks there will be a lot of physio, gym work and getting miles back into my legs but I am fortunate to have found a vocation that means so much to me and the thought of getting back out on the trail is a huge motivation !!